Maddux at 10 weeks
Then, at 10 months of age, my happiness was shattered. My beloved boy had his first bout with FSF/SHS an all to common breed related inflammatory disease. I sat on the floor with him and sobbed. I knew what it meant. I knew then how I would most likely lose my precious Maddux. I was devastated. At one point in his life, he was having episodes at least once a week. I found the most wonderful group of people on the internet, headed by my now good friend Jeanette Ward Taber. She gave us the information we needed to put a complete end to his fevers for a period of 18 months! It was heaven for both of us. I dont know why that reprieve ended but it did and He fevered on and off for the rest of his life, including an episode just 3 weeks before he died. I believe this last one was just more than his poor ravaged kidneys could survive. I believe it is what caused the downward spiral that forced me to make the decision to help him cross the Rainbow Bridge.
Maddux was and still is the love of my life. I have had many many dogs over the years, but the love we shared and the connection we had to each other was truly magical. He knew what I needed before I did!
When my back hurt, he would press his warm body against the exact spot it was hurting in. When I needed to laugh, he was a clown, butt-zooming all over the house in tight circles. When I needed a shoulder to cry on, his was there, he would look at me with those beautiful wise eyes, and I would sob on his body, my face buried in his fur. We slept together every night for almost 8 years. Last week he took a turn for the worse. I had his kidney values check and they had shot sky high in just 6 weeks. I had been giving him fluids sub-q at home for 4 months, trying to protect what he had left of his kidney function. We thought we could bring them down again with IV fluids for 2 days, but it was not to be. His values stayed the same. My Vet told me on Monday to take him home, spoil him, love him and prepare. How does one prepare for the devastating loss of such a special boy?? I spent 3 nights up with him all night. Talking to him telling him stories, reassuring him it would all be ok. It was so beautiful but heart wrenching too. He really went downhill Sunday night, so I called first thing in the morning to get him in. We rechecked his blood, and the news wasnt good. We set an appointment for Wednesday afternoon to help him cross the bridge. That night, he continued his decline and I made the most unselfish decision I could, I couldnt wait until Wednesday, I had to let him go and end his suffering. After everything he had been through, he was still my boy. Wagging his tail and being brave for his momma. His Veterinarian for his whole life Dr Steve Servantez came to our home Monday afternoon and Maddux went to sleep peacefully at home on my lap, in my arms. I would also like to thank Dr Jeffery Vidt and Dr Linda Tintle for your help and support. RIP my beautiful brave sweet sweet boy. Wait for me at the bridge my Love. I was truly blessed to have you by my side for as long as I did. Have fun playing with your friends Mia, Curtis, Samba, Miso, Fyah, Cinnamon and all the others. Tell them their mommies miss them too. I love you big boy. I am so lost without you.
Maddux Aug 11, 2004-August 28, 2012
May 2012 - Better days